Bad day. Hm... Maybe bad life?
They say I have wrong lifestyle, wrong job, wrong relatonship... I realize that I know myself better than anyone. But what if they are right? What if I spent the great part of my life not in the way I should had? They are quite respected people for me, and in addition to it they took me some argued advises and criticized some doubtful aspects of my life independently from each other. These facts raise serious hesitations in my mind and makes me think deeply over their words. And the most terrifying is that I seem to agree with them.
I ask myself what I need to do to make such substantial changes in my life, and what is even more difficult in what way I should execute this changes. All of this means I have to break down my previous quartercentury long life experience to build new personality, habbits, etc. But how can I do this? It seems imbosible. There are too many questions and I have no answers to them.
No, I haven`t depressed yet. But all this situation makes me give up and lose the reasons for further self-development.
Thank you for your patience while reading my whine and I sencerely apologize for my awful "english" (it`s not my native language, as you have already guessed)
They say I have wrong lifestyle, wrong job, wrong relatonship... I realize that I know myself better than anyone. But what if they are right? What if I spent the great part of my life not in the way I should had? They are quite respected people for me, and in addition to it they took me some argued advises and criticized some doubtful aspects of my life independently from each other. These facts raise serious hesitations in my mind and makes me think deeply over their words. And the most terrifying is that I seem to agree with them.
I ask myself what I need to do to make such substantial changes in my life, and what is even more difficult in what way I should execute this changes. All of this means I have to break down my previous quartercentury long life experience to build new personality, habbits, etc. But how can I do this? It seems imbosible. There are too many questions and I have no answers to them.
No, I haven`t depressed yet. But all this situation makes me give up and lose the reasons for further self-development.
Thank you for your patience while reading my whine and I sencerely apologize for my awful "english" (it`s not my native language, as you have already guessed)
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