After almost four years of being vegetarian, I’ve finally come to terms that I was doing it as a coping mechanism, maybe guilt or a way to take back some control over my life after a close one’s death.
Now I don’t feel as well as I felt before, i don’t want to cook anything just Eating anything relatively healthy and keep on moving, I don’t know what’s going on.
Also I feel highly criticized by myself when the animal produce craving started, I don’t have any vitamin deficiency as I’ve been taking supplements and just did the blood tests.
So I might be going ”pescatarian” or something, I don’t know if that’s the change I need or do I need to do more introspective work as this seems to be painful( I might be trying to hide) and blocking something deeper, I just don’t know what’s going on and needed to rant.
Now I wonder should I listen to my body needs or dive deeper in my mind mechanisms? Has anyone here experienced something similar?
as I debate with myself inside, I’ve noticed I’m frozen and the day’s energy or Willpower is spent too fast, not feeling like taking care of myself today and that’s a no-no. I don’t want to go back to my old habits but I’m giving them control over me in this moment. where does a obsession start and a lifestyle begins?
I’m afraid for no reason and I’m aware of that but still the hardest thing for me is to get out of my mind and start acting, I just keep cyclin through my thoughts.
Now I don’t feel as well as I felt before, i don’t want to cook anything just Eating anything relatively healthy and keep on moving, I don’t know what’s going on.
Also I feel highly criticized by myself when the animal produce craving started, I don’t have any vitamin deficiency as I’ve been taking supplements and just did the blood tests.
So I might be going ”pescatarian” or something, I don’t know if that’s the change I need or do I need to do more introspective work as this seems to be painful( I might be trying to hide) and blocking something deeper, I just don’t know what’s going on and needed to rant.
Now I wonder should I listen to my body needs or dive deeper in my mind mechanisms? Has anyone here experienced something similar?
as I debate with myself inside, I’ve noticed I’m frozen and the day’s energy or Willpower is spent too fast, not feeling like taking care of myself today and that’s a no-no. I don’t want to go back to my old habits but I’m giving them control over me in this moment. where does a obsession start and a lifestyle begins?
I’m afraid for no reason and I’m aware of that but still the hardest thing for me is to get out of my mind and start acting, I just keep cyclin through my thoughts.

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