I had a really decent break-up with my Ex a month back. I'm personally surprised at how fast I've gotten over it, but there are a lot of variables to this.
I messed up.
I SHOULD NOT have gotten into a relationship right out/during mental therapy and using anxiety-lowering pills.
I should not have let this go on for as long as it did.
I should not have fallen into the mistakes that I made.
But I did. I own up to my shortcomings and move on to become a better person.
I'm grateful for it, but the personal things I gained out of it far outweigh the fact I thought I could love her. But that's not the point.
I closed that door and moved on. I have fourth-year dentistry finals going on at the moment and those are all I can think about - and it turns out even though I'm respecting her in the way I'm NOT divulging info about the past to other - including my friendship circle (super tight) - she's going off behind my back and spouting nonsense.
What I can't wrap my head around is the why - what does she gain out of it? Nothing - at all. I'm done with the relationship. I closed that door. After learning how toxic you can be, I stood back and turned away, literally telling you that I don't want you in my life anymore. What do you gain out of trying to make me jealous or making me out to be the evil one? Can't you just act like a decent human being and accept that life?
Leave me alone already.
I messed up.
I SHOULD NOT have gotten into a relationship right out/during mental therapy and using anxiety-lowering pills.
I should not have let this go on for as long as it did.
I should not have fallen into the mistakes that I made.
But I did. I own up to my shortcomings and move on to become a better person.
I'm grateful for it, but the personal things I gained out of it far outweigh the fact I thought I could love her. But that's not the point.
I closed that door and moved on. I have fourth-year dentistry finals going on at the moment and those are all I can think about - and it turns out even though I'm respecting her in the way I'm NOT divulging info about the past to other - including my friendship circle (super tight) - she's going off behind my back and spouting nonsense.
What I can't wrap my head around is the why - what does she gain out of it? Nothing - at all. I'm done with the relationship. I closed that door. After learning how toxic you can be, I stood back and turned away, literally telling you that I don't want you in my life anymore. What do you gain out of trying to make me jealous or making me out to be the evil one? Can't you just act like a decent human being and accept that life?
Leave me alone already.
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