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    Days should have more than 24 hours.

    But why am I saying that? Because I hate that my time is taken up by people. The thing is that I prefer it just to have an excuse to leave the house, even when I have a billion of responsabilities. And I'm not running away from my responsabilities as an artist; I'm running away from the house because I don't like it here at all. I've been reading the Hávamál, more specifically, stanzas 41 to 45. Mom told me something interesting today. Her grandmother; my great grandmother, taught her some values that she's trying to reprogram because they are too naive, innocent and overall silly. I inherited those values, and that costed me many victories on Karate, and worsened the troubles I've got into due to bullying and being a bully myself just to survive the bullying.

    She was blinded by the fact that we've been living with a narcissist for almost twenty years until two years ago. And just today, she admitted that evil people are real, and they don't need to have a good side. And now that's too late, she's regretting many things. That's when the stanzas echoed in my head. I know not what tomorrow will bring, as Pessoa would say, but if I ever had children, I'm killing those worthless values. To his friend a man a friend shall prove, and gifts with gifts requite. But men shall mocking with mockery answer, and fraud with falsehood meet. I'm not sorry by the fact that I feel no empathy towards the narcissist. And I'm not sorry to say that just a few years of paganism taught me so much more about myself and life than 20 something years of catholicism.

    A meme showed up on my feed, posing quite an interesting question: "let's say you, somehow, meet up with your 18 years old self by chance, and you can only say to them three words. What do you say?" Only one sentence came to mind: "leave the country."

    I'm not over the fact that I could have left in 2014. I'm not over the fact that I needed my brother's help. And just when I built up the courage for his advice, a very violent cancer took him away. His birthday was last Friday. He would have been 40 years old by now.

    December 15th 2021
    Kickboxing: Day 43

    The Right Side + 10 Decline Push-ups
    Sól Salutation - LVL I +EC
    Mani Salutation - 5 Sets
    100 Burpees +EC:
    25 Full Burpees
    25 Full Burpees
    25 Basic Burpees
    25 Basic Burpees
    Daily Dare: 40 Lunge Step-ups +EC
    Count: 598 - 594 +EC
    2 Minutes Decline Elbow Plank
    Daily Gratitude
    Counting Victories
    101 adorations for Freya for 101 days (53/101)

    Programs:
    Fit December: Day 15 +Megaset

    Workouts:
    Arm Lift +EC
    Five Rites
    Super Abs +EC
    ​​3 x 30 Seconds Chakrasana + 30 Seconds Pawanmuktasana
    Virasana + Prayer

    Challenges:
    Punch Out!: Day 15 +300 Side Kicks

    Nope (0/7)
    Slow... (3/7)
    Nope (0/7)

    Learning Progress:
    InkScape - Nope
    Pixel Art - Nope
    From basic math to calculus - Nope
    HTML and Java - ...until further notice

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      Hugs regarding the loss of your brother...
      And yeah, there is a sland to badness in all of all, and downright meanness or manipulation in some. Finding the balance between forgiving and protecting yourself is a life long endeavour, at least for me...

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        I didn't draw today, but I did draw some inspiration for the D&D campaign. Using the Random Dungeon Generator, I managed to get my head together and generated a couple of maps that I'll modify a little bit so I can finish, at least, the Zero Session. Everyone is eager to play, although one character is missing yet.

        I've been struggling to write too. Once again, I'm stuck in my room, and it's difficult to write when you're trying to find good posture. Tomorrow, I'm bringing my laptop out just so I can continue with everything, but for the time being, I'm using the break to plot out projects, diversify, write down ideas and all that good stuff.

        15 snowballs dodged today. I'm doing uneven numbers as Squats and even numbers as Single Leg Squats. If the number of Snowballs flying increases all of the sudden, I might turn to normal Squats. Last year it was a warzone, probably because we've got 10 snowballs for each dodge. This year isn't going to be long, though.

        Burpees were done, though. More reps on the sets this time. I could mark EEC, but I prefer to consider that EEC also counts for doing them without breaks.

        E: I forgot to add the ornaments before, but I reported the progress on the thread. I'll edit that one day, probably. Not going to make the same mistake with the snowfight, though.

        December 16th 2021
        Kickboxing: Day 43

        The Right Side + 10 Decline Push-ups
        Sól Salutation - LVL I +EC
        Mani Salutation - 5 Sets
        100 Burpees +EC:
        50 Full Burpees
        50 Full Burpees
        Daily Dare: 3 Minutes Overhead Clench / Unclench +EC
        Count: 599 - 595 +EC
        2 Minutes Decline Elbow Plank
        Daily Gratitude
        Counting Victories
        101 adorations for Freya for 101 days (54/101)

        Programs:
        Fit December: Day 16 +Megaset

        Workouts:
        WoD: Stability
        Triceps +EC +Reps Doubled
        Five Rites
        Super Abs +EC
        ​​3 x 30 Seconds Chakrasana + 30 Seconds Pawanmuktasana
        Virasana + Prayer

        Challenges:
        Punch Out!: Day 16
        SNOWFIGHT 2021: Dodged today - 15 | Dodged in total - 15
        3 Squats
        12 Single Leg Squats

        Nope, but got inspired (0/7)
        Flash fiction, plotting, organization... (4/7)
        Just a little tiny bit of guitar (1/7)

        Learning Progress:
        InkScape - Nope
        Pixel Art - Nope
        From basic math to calculus - Nope
        HTML and Java - ...until further notice
        Last edited by Sólveig; December 18, 2021, 02:08 AM. Reason: Added the Squats of Snowfight

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          I cancelled today as a whole. At around 2 AM there was a nation wide powercut that I swore that was going to last at least a week, like back in 2019. Suffice to say that PTSD got the best of me. I barely did anything today. My anxiety turned into a panic attack, that then turned into a fit of rage...

          When the power came back, I couldn't help but be completely afraid. I've spent the entire day on edge, expecting for that thing to happen at any time whatsoever. This isn't good. I was planning to do Fit December, used another pass. I wanted to do Burpees, I skipped them. I also planned to do something tonight, and I skipped it all. Even the Workout of the Day was skipped. Only Punch Out, Snowball and the Daily Dare. That's it.

          There's going to be a Shito Ryu exhibition at the community center tomorrow. I was planning to write, but I'm going just to relax, and remember the good times of my childhood. I'm done for today.

          December 17th 2021
          Kickboxing: Day 43

          The Right Side + 10 Decline Push-ups
          Sól Salutation - LVL I +EC
          Mani Salutation - 5 Sets
          100 Burpees +EC
          Daily Dare: 40 Side Bridges +EC
          Count: 600 - 596 +EC
          2 Minutes Decline Elbow Plank
          Daily Gratitude
          Counting Victories
          101 adorations for Freya for 101 days (55/101)

          Programs:
          Fit December: Day 17 - Used a pass

          Workouts:
          WoD: Leg-endary +EC
          Arm Lift +EC
          Five Rites
          Super Abs +EC
          ​​3 x 30 Seconds Chakrasana + 30 Seconds Pawanmuktasana
          Virasana + Prayer

          Challenges:
          Punch Out!: Day 17 +340 Side Kicks
          SNOWFIGHT 2021: Dodged today - 21 | Dodged in total - 43
          1 Squat
          20 Single Leg Squats

          Nope (0/7)
          Plotting (5/7)
          Nope (1/7)

          Learning Progress:
          InkScape - Nope
          Pixel Art - Nope
          From basic math to calculus - Nope
          HTML and Java - ...until further notice

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              Originally posted by Sólveig View Post
              There's going to be a Shito Ryu exhibition at the community center tomorrow. I was planning to write, but I'm going just to relax, and remember the good times of my childhood. I'm done for today.
              Well, I thought it wrong, or I've been misinformed by the dojo all along. It was actually Shotokan this whole time. I didn't need for them to say it when I recognized instantly the moves. I don't remember much specifically because I was so young, but they were muscle memory.
              ,
              The exhibit went incredible. Too many white belts too, and the majority were teenagers and young adults, not kids. It was their exam too, and all of them passed. It was amazing, and it brought so many memories...

              I had to show my respects too. I didn't join them because I'm not a Karateka anymore, but I did the greetings out of respect both for the art, the importance it had on my childhood, and the Gods. I could feel Týr and Freyja's influence, especially because one of the senseis was on a wheelchair. She even joked about literally kicking butts if people don't do well. It might sound funny, but I actually believe it. She is a sensei for a reason.

              Still, it really makes me want to join in on the action. I don't think I can return back to 7th kyu as if I never took a break, but I'm definitely fit for it. Even though krav maga and kickboxing are fun, shotokan has been something I deeply regret abandoning... I never had the tools to deal with what happened, which may be stupid to some, but I was a young kid who had her first fracture, and no one didn't even taught her how to overcome that trauma. When I was mature enough to understand everything (back when I found out I was trans), I knew that my life would be completely different if I stuck with it. I may have transferred from dojos with the moving too. But one thing is certain: I would never have stopped.

              It was a good day. A nice day to be out of the house, and just go back to the golden era of my life. I seriously need to either go back to it, or make up for it. If not for me, then for the Gods.

              At least I was pretty inspired to do Burpees. Not so much for a combat workout; I came home late, and I skipped things in the morning.

              December 18th 2021
              Kickboxing: Day 43

              The Right Side + 10 Decline Push-ups
              Sól Salutation - LVL I +EC
              Mani Salutation - 5 Sets
              100 Burpees +EC:
              20 Full Burpees
              30 Full Burpees w/Jump Knee-Tuck (See Burpee Queen workout below)
              50 Full Burpees
              Daily Dare: 40 Climber Taps +EC
              Count: 601 - 597 +EC
              2 Minutes Decline Elbow Plank
              Daily Gratitude
              Counting Victories
              101 adorations for Freya for 101 days (56/101)

              Programs:
              Fit December: Day 18 +Megaset

              Workouts:
              WoD: Less is More - LVL III +Megaset
              Burpee Queen / Full Burpees w/Jump Knee-Tuck +EC
              Five Rites
              Crop Top +EC
              ​​3 x 30 Seconds Chakrasana + 30 Seconds Pawanmuktasana
              Virasana + Prayer

              Challenges:
              Punch Out!: Day 18
              SNOWFIGHT 2021: Dodged today - 43 | Dodged in total - 86
              1 Squat
              42 Single Leg Squats

              I drew the dungeons (1/7)
              Flash fiction (6/7)
              Nope (1/7)

              Learning Progress:
              InkScape - Nope
              Pixel Art - Nope
              From basic math to calculus - Nope
              HTML and Java - ...until further notice

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                Full week of writing, which is good. Can't say the same about the rest, but I hope the upcoming week is different. There was a plan of drawing and study math today, but I think it fell apart the moment I woke up really, really late.

                As far as the day... it was, boring. Most of it was attempting to write, and attempting quite a lot. I managed to do it! But the results are not exactly what I was expecting. Oh well, is not anything that can't be fixed by an edit or two. I'm doing my best to silence my inner critic, but it's very loud.

                I also need to get some sheets of paper to put down the maps on a bigger format for my party, and leaving them blank too. We already have a grid which might be useful for closing in on stuff, but that's it. I'm also making a compass so the map is facing the direction it's supposed to. I might also recreate my character and switch gender, aware that one of the guys is playing as a girl. And I feel like drawing it too. I'm not sure if the rest of the party will do something about appearance before or after our Zero Session.

                Speaking of that, I tried to draw today. I ended up just looking through books. I didn't lift a pencil today.

                December 19th 2021
                Kickboxing: Day 43

                The Right Side + 10 Decline Push-ups
                Sól Salutation - LVL I +EC
                Mani Salutation - 5 Sets
                100 Burpees +EC:
                25 Full Burpees
                25 Full Burpees
                40 Full Burpees
                10 Double Burpees w/Jump Knee-Tuck
                Daily Dare: 60 Seconds Pacer Steps +EC
                Count: 602 - 598 +EC
                2 Minutes Decline Elbow Plank
                Daily Gratitude
                Counting Victories
                101 adorations for Freya for 101 days (57/101)

                Programs:
                Fit December: Day 19 +Megaset

                Workouts:
                Five Rites
                Crop Top +EC
                ​​3 x 30 Seconds Chakrasana + 30 Seconds Pawanmuktasana
                Virasana + Prayer

                Challenges:
                Punch Out!: Day 19 +380 Side Kicks
                SNOWFIGHT 2021: Dodged today - 112 | Dodged in total - 256
                0 Squats
                112 Single Leg Squats

                Close (1/7)
                Some writing was done (7/7)
                Nope (1/7)

                Learning Progress:
                InkScape - Nope
                Pixel Art - Nope
                From basic math to calculus - There was a plan
                HTML and Java - ...until further notice

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                  I ALMOST missed workout. I mean ALMOST. I spent the afternoon writing, and I was so into it that I forgot about everything until it was almost dusk. The morning was busy, I had a late lunch...

                  Well, it doesn't matter. Plenty of checkmarks today. I had the space to do the asanas, so I finally checked them! Basic Burpees too; I didn't feel like adding Push-ups, although I compensated for 20 by making them double.

                  Anyway, there isn't much to tell. Like I said, plenty of writing done! And I'm looking forward to do some more tomorrow.

                  December 20th 2021
                  Kickboxing: Day 43

                  The Right Side + 10 Decline Push-ups
                  Sól Salutation - LVL I +EC
                  Mani Salutation - 5 Sets
                  100 Burpees +EC:
                  60 Basic Burpees
                  10 Full Burpees
                  10 Full Burpees w/Jump Knee-Tuck
                  10 Double Burpees
                  10 Double Burpees w/Jump Knee-Tuck
                  Daily Dare: 40 Get-ups +EC
                  Count: 603 - 599 +EC
                  2 Minutes Decline Elbow Plank
                  Daily Gratitude
                  Counting Victories
                  101 adorations for Freya for 101 days (58/101)

                  Programs:
                  Fit December: Day 20 +Megaset

                  Workouts:
                  Monday +EC
                  Arm Lift +EC
                  Five Rites
                  Super Abs +EC
                  ​​3 x 30 Seconds Chakrasana + 30 Seconds Pawanmuktasana
                  Virasana + Prayer

                  Challenges:
                  Punch Out!: Day 20

                  I painted something? I wasn't planning on it, but I painted... (1/7)
                  Lots of writing (1/7)
                  Nope (0/7)

                  Learning Progress:
                  InkScape - Nope
                  Pixel Art - Nope
                  From basic math to calculus - There was a plan... again...
                  HTML and Java - ...until further notice

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                    It's been a while. The advantage of Super Abs is that it's quick, but I do love incorporating Butt-ups, Crunches are still fun at high numbers, though.

                    Today... I did nothing! Well, at least it was better. I didn't do combat, even though I wanted to. I woke up very late again, and did nothing. I've been consumed by doubt mostly, so instead of writing, I spend more time world building just to escape from that. I need to put my head in order, because my doubt isn't about my writing at all. It's actually about contracts, and how what I write might be in conflict with what the majority of Terms and Conditions of the majority of distributors establish. There is a Survival Bias on Amazon, on one hand. Wattpad, not worth it; the audience is bad, and the reward is too little for too much work. Inkitt, I don't know much about it, but the little things that I know scare me, and Raddish is abusive and probably is taking advantage of a loophole in an Intellectual Property law?

                    I don't know. The more I dig up from old and new threads on forums, the more questions I have. I need to take a break from writing and do further research on this, because having a deal with a mainstream publisher... uh, it takes way too long nowdays, and the ones near me are not interested in what I produce (not to mention, I have to kiss the government's butt, an I think any artist who does that is unethical, no matter the government).. And even if I break a deal, it's going to take a while to see a book on a shelf... I'm talking about years.

                    I hate that most of the things that I find is mostly writing and editing techniques, having beta readers, editos, blah, blah, blah... But when it comes to publishing or marketing, everyone just scrapes the surface. Isn't this supposed to be the golden era of self publishing? It's already the new era of pulp fiction with the amount of stuff I've seen on Kindle.

                    December 21st 2021
                    Kickboxing: Day 43

                    The Right Side + 10 Decline Push-ups
                    Sól Salutation - LVL I +EC
                    Mani Salutation - 5 Sets
                    100 Burpees +EC:
                    30 Full Burpees w/Jump Knee-Tuck (See Burpee Queen workout below)
                    20 Full Burpees
                    50 Full Burpees
                    Daily Dare: 40 Climber Taps +EC
                    Count: 604 - 600 +EC
                    2 Minutes Decline Elbow Plank
                    Daily Gratitude
                    Counting Victories
                    101 adorations for Freya for 101 days (59/101)

                    Programs:
                    Fit December: Day 21 +Megaset

                    Workouts:
                    Burpee Queen / Full Burpees w/Jump Knee-Tuck +EC
                    Triceps +EC +Reps Doubled
                    Five Rites
                    Masterpack - LVL III +EC
                    ​​3 x 30 Seconds Chakrasana + 30 Seconds Pawanmuktasana
                    Virasana + Prayer

                    Challenges:
                    Punch Out!: Day 21 +400 Side Kicks

                    More theory and desire than drawing at all (0/7)
                    World building (2/7)
                    Nope (0/7)

                    Learning Progress:
                    InkScape - Nope
                    Pixel Art - Nope
                    From basic math to calculus - Nope
                    HTML and Java - ...until further notice

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                      Cancelling tonight. It's been a very hot day, and I don't want to make the night worst by working out.

                      Boring day. Things were planned, yet they weren't done. I did some research to no end... In the end, I might just wing it and try to experiment on it.

                      I don't have anything else to say. It's really hot, and I can't think clearly... I'll link tomorrow.

                      December 22nd 2021
                      Kickboxing: Day 43

                      The Right Side + 10 Decline Push-ups
                      Sól Salutation - LVL I +EC
                      Mani Salutation - 5 Sets
                      100 Burpees +EC
                      Daily Dare: 2 Minutes Side Leg Raise Hold +EC
                      Count: 605 - 601 +EC
                      2 Minutes Decline Elbow Plank
                      Daily Gratitude
                      Counting Victories
                      101 adorations for Freya for 101 days (60/101)

                      Programs:
                      Fit December: Day 22 +Megaset

                      Workouts:
                      WoD: Sherlock - LVL III +EC
                      Arm Lift +EC
                      Five Rites
                      Masterpack - LVL III +EC
                      ​​3 x 30 Seconds Chakrasana + 30 Seconds Pawanmuktasana
                      Virasana + Prayer

                      Challenges:
                      Punch Out!: Day 22

                      Planned out, but more studying theory again (0/7)
                      World building (3/7)
                      Nope (0/7)

                      Learning Progress:
                      InkScape - Nope
                      Pixel Art - Nope
                      From basic math to calculus - Nope
                      HTML and Java - ...until further notice

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                        The day has been horrible. No, it isn't that I had a bad day, or at least to some extent. I was just attacked by a plot bunny and I can't seem to finish it in one sitting, but I developed the idea quite a lot. No, that's not it. It's the heat. Today has been so much worst than yesterday. I could barely do anything. Everything was so spread out, and even doing Basic Burpees was difficult. There were some cloudy moments too, so perhaps some rain will come. Honestly, I want it to rain now.

                        Tomorrow, I'll be transplanting the garlic to a new place. It's finally time. One seedling is very tall, so they might be already actual plants now. They are changing leaves too. Harvest will be next year, and I'll plant some more after it.

                        December 23rd 2021
                        Kickboxing: Day 43

                        The Right Side + 10 Decline Push-ups
                        Sól Salutation - LVL I +EC
                        Mani Salutation - 5 Sets
                        100 Burpees +EC:
                        70 Basic Burpees
                        30 Full Burpees w/Jump Knee-Tuck (See Burpee Queen workout below)
                        Daily Dare: 40 Split Lunges +EC
                        Count: 606 - 602 +EC
                        2 Minutes Decline Elbow Plank
                        Daily Gratitude
                        Counting Victories
                        101 adorations for Freya for 101 days (61/101)

                        Programs:
                        Fit December: Day 23 +Megaset

                        Workouts:
                        Burpee Queen / Full Burpees w/Jump Knee-Tuck +EC
                        Triceps +EC +Reps Doubled
                        Five Rites
                        Masterpack - LVL III +EC
                        ​​3 x 30 Seconds Chakrasana + 30 Seconds Pawanmuktasana
                        Virasana + Prayer

                        Challenges:
                        Punch Out!: Day 23 +420 Side Kicks

                        There was a plan (0/7)
                        Attacked a plot bunny (4/7)
                        Nope (0/7)

                        Learning Progress:
                        InkScape - Nope
                        Pixel Art - Nope
                        From basic math to calculus - Nope
                        HTML and Java - ...until further notice

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                          🎄Merry Christmas🎄

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                            Happy Christmas!

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                              Happy holidays!

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                                I transplanted the garlic today, trimmed some dry leaves and now it's looking even better. The seedlings loved the new space. I never thought plants could be so instantly thankful when you treat them right. Just trimming those leaves made them stand straight up in a pinch!

                                I'll upload the pictures tomorrow, if I don't forget. So, Happy Holidays (again). It was a good day. Finished up with the plot bunny, and now I'm ready to carry on with the rest of my stuff.

                                December 24th 2021
                                Kickboxing: Day 43

                                The Right Side + 10 Decline Push-ups
                                Sól Salutation - LVL I +EC
                                Mani Salutation - 5 Sets
                                100 Burpees +EC:
                                25 Full Burpees
                                25 Full Burpees
                                25 Full Burpees
                                25 Full Burpees
                                Daily Dare: 2 Minutes O-Pose Hold +EC
                                Count: 607 - 603 +EC
                                2 Minutes Decline Elbow Plank
                                Daily Gratitude
                                Counting Victories
                                101 adorations for Freya for 101 days (62/101)

                                Programs:
                                Fit December: Day 24 +Megaset

                                Workouts:
                                Arm Lift +EC
                                Five Rites
                                Masterpack - LVL III +EC
                                ​​3 x 30 Seconds Chakrasana + 30 Seconds Pawanmuktasana
                                Virasana + Prayer

                                Challenges:
                                Punch Out!: Day 24

                                Nope (0/7)
                                Finished off the plot bunny (5/7)
                                Nope (0/7)

                                Learning Progress:
                                InkScape - Nope
                                Pixel Art - Nope
                                From basic math to calculus - Nope
                                HTML and Java - ...until further notice

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