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    Back and Biceps express with 15lbs, and some yoga. I need to make a structure for myself, next week, when I start teaching in a summer school (I don't even know what subject yet LOL)

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      Surprise teaching is the best teaching, embrace the chaos XD No but seriously, keep up the fine work and wish you all the best at teaching your classes, have a good one!

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        Got an A! 3 credits down, 27 or so to go. Been walking.

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          Originally posted by 'rin View Post
          Got an A! 3 credits down, 27 or so to go. Been walking.

          Current Streak 375


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          Congrats on that "A"

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            Congrats!! Well done!!

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              Way to get it DONE!!🥳😎

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                Congratulations!

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                  Cheers! You have a 4.0!

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                    More walking. Will actually work out eventually.

                    Telehealth psych visit tomorrow bc amount of caffeine that 4.0 took is not good for any part of my life except grades and maybe I should actually deal w my ADHD >.> Except I live in the land of no healthcare so I can't go to the dr so I need to use some how is this even legal zoom dr LOL.


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                      So ya. Did some random yoga poses + chest and back light when I was trying (and failing) to study today.


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                        Yay for getting an A! ​​​​​​
                        And good luck with your telepsy!

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                          I have done some sort of intentional movement every day, even if it was random yoga poses, so I'm keeping my streak.

                          I was going to have to teach 10th grade geometry but the coteacher and my cofellow are fucking awesome but we had like NO kids show up to class this week so.... I get to do something else? But IDK what? But I did 4 lesson plans for this already, do I need to do 4 more for idk wtf subject now? Uncertainty, go! At least I will still have a nice commute for this summer bc the new place is in the same building as the old (it's a thing in nyc w several schools sharing a building, I don't understand it but w/e).

                          I got through a day yesterday of a ton of mental work and massive uncertainty with only TWO coffees and no moments where I felt like I was overwhelmed (and the 2nd coffee was bc I like coffee, not bc I felt like I needed one) with the help of my new RX so ya. When life is not hectic, my "scaffolding" that I have built for myself works fine. (Distraction tasks for planned breaks from long/hard work, certain objects ALWAYS in the same space so I can't loose them/routines of putting them there immediately when I get home/take them off, my scheduled workouts, all the coffees and maybe some caffeine mints/chocolate coffee beans, etc.) When my life is hectic (ie I cannot plan ahead so I end up improvising often in un-useful ways) or I have a lot to process mentally ... (like intensive grad school classes on top of on the job training) ... I was playing life on hard mode, for no fucking reason. I had a script for this same med (low dose, 18mg concerta) over 20 years ago, realizing this is a thing that I ought to have sometimes is not new. I feel guilty taking the "help", though, even if I do legit have the issue. (Altho my latest diagnosis was basically from a pill mill bc no fucking insurance. Whatever, they gave me the same stuff I was given after a legit diagnostic process in the past.) Because... I CAN manage without it. Barely. At the cost of drinking coffee until my eyelids twitch, staying up until 2am to do work I could have completed by 10pm if I wasn't distracted, massive anxiety and often actions that are unhelpful when something unexpected pops up, often saying ridiculously blunt things that might hurt me professionally because filters are an executive function after all, and occasional crying fits over being unable to find shit I need for the 5th time in the last 20 mins.

                          Why do I feel somehow guilty/like a failure because I've decided to use the medicinal assist instead of just white knuckling through?



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                            I know the feeling, probably it is something many of us feel, the "not being tough enough". It just has to be kept in mind that, wether we feel so or not, getting help does not make us weak or guilty. It is the necessary step sometimes. I wish the best for you!

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                              'rin , if you were nearsighted, would you feel guilty about using glasses? Concerta is like brain's glasses.

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                                I was going to say something along the lines of what Louve rose said.

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