Seeking Some Duct Tape

You can have all of my "visiting", CODawn. I'm not much for being around people for as long as I've been forced to be with my inability to find employment plus the ridiculous* pandemic mess.










*By ridiculous, I mean the inability of the government to get its act together and issue some orders to at least slow it down. For a second time. Because the government let everybody restart way, way too quickly.

I just miss my parents. We've seem them twice a year since we moved out here (except for the year we had to cancel at the last minute because of Whisper ). I agree with you about the pandemic shit. Scott and I don't feel safe flying. Couple that with the fact my parents are 75 and my dad has COPD, no one should be in their house right now,

ya CODawn I only went to visit my dad bc 1- it is a short flight, in state in NY, and NY numbers are good compared to rest of country and 2- when I talked to him about it he said he felt more worried about picking up some germs at the hospital when he goes 2-3 times a week then he was about me dragging airplane germs. So I put on a super filter mask instead of just my normal cloth thing and went..... and ugly cried in airport otw home bc it was so fucking strange to visit my dad and not be able to hug him.

Poor thing....virtual hugs just don’t do it, do they...?

This sucks so bad, doesn't it?!? IL (where my parents are now) is terrible. I am worried about the hospitol too because my dad will have to have hernia surgery this fall. When this is over, we will be giving them the biggest hugs.

I'm with you on this shit being ridiculous. I don't think they thought things through, at all.... dead people can't spend money, so this is not helping the economy even, which was their stated reason for reopening.....

Thank you so much everyone, seriously.

Yesterday my exercise was carrying my baggage and walking, and walking for a few groceries when home. IDK if it was 75 mins but I will assume so bc a lot of walking. My food was sugar. My liquids were definately inadequate. Thank goodness I figured out how to do my french lesson on my computer so I didn't miss that.

and to add insult to injury, I spiderwebbed the touch screen of my laptop. After spending 60$ to get a neoprene sleeve for it rushed to me in time to travel so it would be safe in my bag. It thought the cracks were input, of course, which was not making it very useful. I managed to get it to be still long enough to disable the touch screen at least. So now I am waiting for the new display unit I found on ebay to show up and hoping I do not fucking fry my computer trying to install it. Wish me luck.


Movement:
75 active mins 7/10
Yoga 7/10
Structured workout 5/10

Food:
100oz fluids w water>coffee 7/10
Fruit/Veg 3+ 7/10
Lean Protein1+ 8/10
No bednight junk 6/10

Self Preservation:
Wakeup 9/10
French lesson 10/10
Leave fkn house 10/10
Tidy 15 min 10/10


Current streak 74

Good Luck... I am sure it will work!

Good Luck!!

I'm in some sort of a fun but, I think it is a "finding a new equilibrium" sort of funk and not just a pit of ennui so I am going w it. Read 4 novels (2 new, 2 rereads) in the last week so I seem to be getting one of my core values back, at least. Not having my phone back (it is now in new jersey) has thrown off my day today - wanted to go see old roommate, but I wanted to walk to her, and I'm not doing that w out googlemaps in my pocket bc I know me LOL.

Yesterday I went for a short walk when I left house to get a nice brunch (avocado toast w poached eggs), read a ton, dealt w sharkcat (who is now having diarrhea in places other than her sandbox and growling like a tiger if I pick her up and pop her in her box if she seems to be squatting... I need to buy more cleaning spray today) and played some commander then some vintage.

Today I will go to the outdoor workout class that got rained out yesterday and get my exercise back on track.

Movement:
75 active mins 7/11
Yoga 7/11
Structured workout 5/11

Food:
100oz fluids w water>coffee 7/11
Fruit/Veg 3+ 8/11
Lean Protein1+ 9/11
No bednight junk 7/11

Self Preservation:
Wakeup 10/11
French lesson 11/11
Leave fkn house 11/11
Tidy 15 min 11/11


Current streak 75

Went to class yesterday, which was nice. Forgot water for class yesterday, which was not nice, thank goodness it was not super hot. Going to assume 75 active mins bc that was 45 mins and I spent at least 30 walking to grocery store and around neighborhood.

My sleep is strange last few days bc I am up in the night bc of the darn cat (can't blame her, she is HANGRY, it is like having a baby kitten almost in terms of how often she wants to be fed). But then I don't get back to sleep right away... and then when I do I sleep till 7 or 8.

I need my phone back for food accountability (it went to and from buffalo sorting place like 5 times, then to philedalphia, then to NJ, now it is on a truck in the Bronx so..... hopeful, except my door buzzer is attached to said phone so I hope the ups guy reads my little note and calls my husband's phone instead of going away bc that would be par for this mess really). Yesterday my food was less than nutritious and I there wasn't really enough of it. (Did not eat until after my class, so around noon, went out and got a "brunch burger" (burger w an egg and cheese on) w roasted veggies (carrot, cauliflower, broccoli) on side (so good)... and otherwise I had a pb cup, and some peanuts, and some random cheese and walnuts. Had plenty of stuff I could of easily made a meal out of and just didn't. Meh. I need to do batch cooking bc I hate wasting food so I will eat stuff if I make it ahead.


On one hand some of my behavior over last few days worries me - I don't need to be eating out 2 days in a row when I don't have a damned job, if I really need to bribe self to leave house a nice iced coffee is cheap enough to be acceptable - but I HAVE gotten my groove back reading wise, which cheers me up, bc being a book nerd is sort of core-rin and not having that was really sort of strange. I think I am just in flux.

Also, I identified something further for my job search. I want to work for a company that is NOT 100% just out for shareholder value. If not a charity/non profit then one that does a lot of charity work or is a "b corp" or is in some people helping field, or maybe a privately owned business. The imperative that corporations MUST do WHATEVER is most profitable for shareholders just leads to asshole shit that I'd rather not be part of anymore if I can help it. Because, I WILL make any company that hires me more money, I am not exaggerating when I say that I will always add value that exceeds my salary. (Have answered a few calls w questions from former management with "it's a shame no one thought of that before laying me off, altho I'm pretty sure that answer is in the novella I emailed you on my last day".) Why am I making more money for assholes? I don't SPEND my money at the more egregious asshole corps (ie walmart, amazon shipping, etc)... why would I make money for them? (This is subject to change, of course, but until I get closer to the end of my UI I am going to be picky.)


Movement:
75 active mins 8/12
Yoga 8/12
Structured workout 6/12

Food:
100oz fluids w water>coffee 7/12
Fruit/Veg 3+ 8/12
Lean Protein1+ 9/12
No bednight junk 8/12

Self Preservation:
Wakeup 10/12
French lesson 12/12
Leave fkn house 12/2
Tidy 15 min 11/12


Current streak 76

Slept in yesterday and was slightly slothish, but did a real workout

1 min plank, 15 sec intervals
Emom 5@ 15 bar
5 squat, 5 good morning
Emom 5@15 bar
5 bent row, 5 millitary press




Movement:
75 active mins 8/13
Yoga 9/13
Structured workout 7/13

Food:
100oz fluids w water>coffee 8/13
Fruit/Veg 3+ 9/13
Lean Protein1+ 10/13
No bednight junk 9/13

Self Preservation:
Wakeup 10/13
French lesson 13/13
Leave fkn house 13/13
Tidy 15 min 12/13


Current streak 77

Habit reset! I think I will keep things mostly the same but do a bit more work with food this week.... going to change fruit/veg goal to 4 (and make 2 veggies) and lean protein goal to 2. Also going to raise active mins goal to 90. Everything gets 2 "acceptable" skips, except structured workouts which gets 4. My showing for last 2 weeks was meh but... vacation will do that.

I made some KILLER veggie packed curry this week (recipe is here) which should help me stay on track w nutrition anyway.

1st day back in the gym yesterday and it was... fun but demoralizing. Rant that doesn't bear retyping is on insta.
I made a pull/push split and kept it really bear and simple for now. 1- I do not want to hurt myself 2- I do not want to spend a lot of time around people indoors but 3- I do want to get strength back (My gym is taking your temp before you even come in building, and limiting ppl inside at once to 1/3 of former capacity, and rearranged a bit to keep ppl apart but... there is still a few assholes hovering in other's space.)
Pull
Bent row
12@45, 10@45, 8@45, 6@45
Good Mornings
12@45, 10@45, 8@55, 6@65
Lat Pulldowns
12@40, 10@55, 8@55, 6@70
Facepulls
12@12.5, 10@17.5, 8@17.5, 6@22.5

At home later did a variation on back and biceps express w 15lbs - did hammers and neutral grip bent rows (since I had done w barbell at gym)

My back is properly sore today and I'm happy about it.

Movement:
75 active mins 9/14
Yoga 10/14
Structured workout 8/14

Food:
100oz fluids w water>coffee 9/14
Fruit/Veg 3+ 10/14
Lean Protein1+ 11/14
No bednight junk 9/14

Self Preservation:
Wakeup 10/14
French lesson 14/14
Leave fkn house 14/14
Tidy 15 min 13/14


Current streak 78

Yesterday I so failed at food. Idk why. I have good stuff available. Instead I ate junk, which I had to go out of the way to aquire. And I only got 2 servings of lean protein bc my pizza had chicken on it.

Anyway. I went on 2 nice walks to get my active mins, and the fact that I don't fail at my self preservation habits cheers me up.

Today I get to battle ny state UI on the phone (they missed one of my payments, damnit) if I ever get through to them. Wish me luck, lol.


Movement:
90 active mins 1/1
Yoga 1/1
Structured workout 0/1

Food:
100oz fluids w water>coffee 1/1
Fruit/Veg 4+ 0/1
Lean Protein 2+ 1/1
No bednight junk 1/1

Self Preservation:
Wakeup 1/1
French lesson 1/1
Leave fkn house 1/1
Tidy 15 min 1/1


Current streak 79