Thank you, everyone <3

I am a bit overwhelmed, honestly.

Today I got a LOT of steps (20k) and pushed 270+sled a bit and 180+sled a larger bit.

Day 4

Day 17 and 18 of baseline.

I find out today if I'm back to work next week at opening or not. On one hand, would be nice for ego to he considered in top sellers, and probably good for my mental state to be off couch. Also I have some custom orders floating I want to sort out. On the other, they are starting us back at 4 days a week which is just enough to not qualify for unemployment but not enough for us to make more then we are making w the enhanced pandemic unemployment unless we have a gonzo sales week. I wish they were taking a few more ppl and giving us 3 days for that for July. So my pocketbook would like a few extra weeks.

But. It is entirely out of my hands either way, so whatever. I will practice my stoicism either way.

Anyhow. Who says gamers can't be on the right side of history?

Day 5

I wish I was better at practicing Stoicism. I read the daily book but putting it into practice is a whole other story.

There’s a book to practice Stoicism??? 😳

Well, maybe Marcus Aurelius, and Seneca 's books? They are even reachable for a non-philosopher like me.

Aurelius would say to go out and do something rather than read his notes to himself. >.> It's not like I've read his Meditations or anything... <.< >.>

I go back on Monday. 4 days a week. Bah. I will be fine, tho. 1- I am always fine and 2 - I might be the only one in my dept.

Father's day reminded me of my favorite picture of my dad, bro, and I.

Did day 19 today and may take an otherwise down day.

day 6

At least you'll have something productive* to do. I have nothing either productive or constructive on my end.












*Productive adjacent, anyway.

wjs yeah. I mean, on one hand this is the only time I've had more then 10 days off in a row (and I've rarely gotten that) in over 20 years.

On the other, I did like near zero of the stuff I wanted to get accomplished while off and basically just sat on couch playing videogames and not even reading much (read all of 2 novels).

I am glad to be heading back to having a schedule, since I procrastinated to death basically.

The Daily Stoic by Ryan Holliday

✊ Procrastinators unite...




... tomorrow!

so good.... (shortly thought about answering tomorrow )

CODawn ok, I need that book now

HellYeah Nebulus LOL

Today I did day 20, and walked to meet gym ppl for an outdoor class. Slightly easy class bc it was fkn hot out, I look like a tomato in obligatory group pic.

Day 7

Can I just say I'm not a fan of "obligatory group pics"? Oh, wait, I just did.

wjs I'm not, either. Altho at least this gym crowd is v much health at every size/age so I am not the only heavyset person (although I am the tallest heavyset person so I am still just big).


So. I am having some drama re: going back to work + my size + my wardrobe.

I need to go through closet and try everything on, and I did do an emergency order of some cheap staples (not how I want to wardrobe build but idk if I'm staying this size) 1-2 sizes up, but I really am frustrated. I am trying to find some balance here - I don't want to overshop at my current size bc idk if I will stay this size. But I also don't want to not have what I need for work. If I look frumpy or my cloths don't fit, customers don't want my advice and I make less money. Rationally I know I just need like 8 outfits total and can just rotate them...and between my current closet and my panic order I should have that... but I KNOW that trying everything on and sorting out those 8 or so outfits is going to involve tears. Esp since some dresses that otherwise fit that I love are too short at current size bc of the size of my ass and summer is not the right season for opaque tights and long cardigans to make them work appropriate. I should probably put those away w out even trying on and save myself drama.

Going to have a nice last day off tomorrow, Monday am allowed to wear jeans bc we aren't open yet, Tuesday my order should get here and I will be a grownup and do groceries/meal prep for the week + closet fashion show. Maybe with some gin.