What she said.

I agree that Mt Sinai sounds like a good plan. Insurance sucks ass...reasons why I do my damnedest to stay AWAY from doctors. Costs, management, coverage, it all sucks royally! Hang in there and don't let anxiety get best of you. Glad to hear kitty is hanging in there too...

Thank you PetiteSheWolf CODawn Mamatigerj MissMolly and everyone else reading along with me still. <3

Shadow Cat is... loving her kitten formula (she CRYS for it, it is fucking rediculous and annoying and cute) and looking less scary thin and more just thin. I am no longer worried she is actually trying to die on me but glad her appt is Monday. Kitten milk and unlimited cans of wet food she will just pick at then shun is not a cheap diet LOL.

Vein dr went well. I feel like I am in very good hands. Unfortunately, there is no magic cure for the current clot, just time and asprin. He is not a huge proponent of compression stockings so I can basically just wear them on days I will be sitting more still. Got 2 sets of 10ish injections to start treating unclotted leg (cannot inject medication where it will just sit lol) and an ultrasound. Going to be seeing him a lot for next few years lol. Oh! And I can go back to gym as soon as tomorrow according to him! Huzah!

Spent 2 hrs sitting in urgent care waiting room to get a very confused dr (we can't do a biopsy here...)who went from confused to worried looking when she saw my hopefully-not-cancer spot and wrote me an urgent referral to their dermatology dept, took a picture for my chart,and said I was right to come in. I almost feel bad wasting time bc really they are there to serve ppl w even less money or even worse insurance then me but, if I went out of pocket to a dermatologist then insurance would cover 0% of the treatment if it is cancer so... if I had to game the system a bit oh well. Will see how quickly I get a call back w an appt. They get till Monday before I start calling them. Am in a bit less of a black mood. Called dad to let him know our lovely genetics are at it again.


Exercise was a walk otw home. Ordering a feast of random appetizers from an Indian place as a reward for not chickening out and actually going to drs today.

Yesterday: 11k steps
630 coffee w half and half
830 muffin, smear of pb, coffe w half and half, cherries, chorizo
1130 ice coffee, almond bite
230 muffin, coffee
3 curry
430 coffee, truffle
10pm 1 slice pizza
1030 hades vitamin water, cherries


913 total/2 streak

do what ya gotta do to get it taken care of.

oh I'm sorry I missed a few things and that there were things to miss. I hope everything will turn out okay

Fingers crossed for everything -- cat's health and your health! The insurance situation sucks, I will never b*tch about the German health care system again!

Thanks daejamurrachan, Gandhalfit, sleep_twitch




Back and biceps Express w my 8lb weights
some stretching
Will walk to subway otw to work

Yesterday was 9k steps and
630 coffee, muffin w pb, chorizo, peach (out of cherries)
915 sausage egg cheese English muffin dunkin, coffee (I did not want to use stopping for a snack to pause between apointment and going to wait at urgent care so got a hobbit breakfast otw)
4pm- Indian food - I had a feast, the place added rice pudding and a few other things to my pile of appetizers order
830pm more Indian food

914 total/3 streak

Thinking of you and hoping everything turns out ok!!!

Ok. My appt is Tuesday (Shadow's is Monday). I have gotten some weight back on Shadow w kitten milk so I really hope he doesn't just assume she is aok /sigh.

My leg was still a bit tender from treatment so, no gym today. Did Upperbody Blast w the 8lb weights I had available at home.

Yesterday was 13k steps
8am 2 muffins w pb, coffee
11am brown bread w lox and cream cheese, iced coffee
205 coffee, truffle- cafe at work has "buy 3 things get a free truffle" atm. A colleague and I are taking turns buying both our coffees + 1 truffle to get us a nice coffee break together >.>
430 curry, yogurt
6pm boredom candy (helping a colleague look for lost keys, found gummy candy in drawer I looked in, ate reflexively) (rly I knew keys were not in drawer but hoped candy might be lol)
930 fried rice

915 total/4 streak

Will be thinking of you for your appointment, and course Shadow's too...
Do you weight Shadow? And if you do, how? Only way I found to weight Luna is to weight myself first, and then take her in my arms and go on the balance with her. But that's not really precise...

I hope Shadow is indeed okay.
That's some menu over there

PetiteSheWolf I used to use that method (made more imprecise by flailing cat). Atm I do not have a scale but, I can tell just by looking at her bc her fur is sleek (not fluffy) that she is smaller/larger. Tempted to buy a mail/baby scale for her.

Good luck on Monday and Tuesday. Lol at the boredom candy.