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    It’s great that when we need them to drag *us* around the block, they are more than happy to!

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      Originally posted by DorothyMH View Post
      It’s great that when we need them to drag *us* around the block, they are more than happy to!
      I would get a toboggan for the winter and a wheeled cart for the summer--but I'm afraid Miss Shelby would drag me right out into traffic.

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        Yesterday walked my Stubby boy with my son, then back to the house to eat dinner(left over chili...yum!). After dinner hopped on the stationary bike for a little over 30 min. Did 7 miles again, but I was using a 'performance' program instead of weight loss, and I felt that! I read/listened to music for the first 20 or so mins, then sat up and concentrated a bit more on the rest.

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          Lets see

          Friday - Walked Stubbs...That was pretty much it

          Saturday - Walked Stubbs, took him to the little field near the house to play frisbee for a little bit...I think he is staying cooped up to long. Sat night went bowling on a 'date' with an old friend...this could get interesting. I mean, I met my soon to be Ex when I was 16, so I've haven't dated in a looonnnnggg time, and even then, idk if you would call it dating. At least it's not someone completely new to me, and someone who was always able to make me laugh. We had a lot of fun.

          Sunday - Walked Stubbs and played Frisbee again, he is loving that! My mom even played it with him in the house!! LOL. Went bowling again, this time with my kids. They were upset I went bowling without them lol. So we went and played a few games. Watching my daughter was hysterical with that big preggo belly of hers! Poor thing cant really bend, so she was just flinging the ball down the lane! Then we went for pizza.

          So, yeah...it was a good weekend and I am feeling pretty damn good

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            Glad you had a good weekend! It's so important to have people who can make you laugh!

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              That sounds amazing. Reading those posts of yours brighten my day. Seriously.

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                What a nice weekend!

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                  Yay for nice weekends!

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                    Thank you JCU DorothyMH @Anek

                    lofivelcro - Awe that's so sweet!

                    Monday - walked stubbs and played frisbee
                    Monday evening was...disappointing. I guess the person I went out with has a girlfriend that I didn't know about and she messaged me...awesome...just what I needed. Oh well...#lessonlearned I will step off him to lift myself up higher. He wants to talk with me about this in person...and you know what, I'm going to let him(if he has the balls to show up)because this is exactly something that will put me out of my comfort zone and therefore push me to grow. Use this to better myself for my next challenge... Besides, I have nothing to lose but a distraction at this point sigh

                    Tues - Got home late, sped walked the dog because it was already dark. This winter is going to suck for real.
                    the 'friend' messaged that he missed me...sure, sure, of that I have no doubt. I did not respond

                    It just pisses me off because I shared a lot of my insecurities and traumas with him, hoping...hoping what? Im not sure exactly...Hoping to hit home I am pretty jacked up so I beg of you please do not fuck with me or my emotions...? But I had told him specifically do not lie to me, there is no reason to at this point.

                    Stay tuned for the next Episode of 'Dawn's Fucked Up Life'

                    For now...I make some notes to practice what I want to say so my brains jumbled mess doesn't deter me from speaking my mind

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                      It completely sucks that he did that! But I think it's amazing that you were able to open up to someone!

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                        I admire you for using that whole mess to get out of your comfort zone. Yeah, it sucks that he did that, but you're right that you have nothing to lose.

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                          Wow. Just. Wow. What a mensch
                          But. Good for you, and your response!

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                            Jeez...where to start

                            I have caught a cold, or have a sinus infection or something(not Covid, just normal cold stuffs) so I stayed in bed for a few days, only going out to take Stubbs for his walks. So other than some drama from the ex, I didnt have much going on Weds, Thurs and Fri. Friday I had an order come in of ZOX bracelets, one for me, for my daughter, for my son, for my closest friend, and one for...him(I will just call him 'J'). This order being placed before shit hit the fan. If you aren't familiar with these bracelets, they are inspirational bracelets made from recycled plastic bottles and such. They have lovely patterns and when you flip them over the message is on the inside of the band, they also come with a little card and they are individually numbered. Mine reads "Still I Rise". Now, the one I got for J i had not intended to give to him yet, but it was something that caught my eye as it was something he had said to me in generalized conversation, so I intended to hang on to it and see how things played out. His message was "Us Against the World". I figured if nothing else I could give it to my daughter to give to her boyfriend.

                            Fast forward to Sat night, because this could get lengthy if I don't skip some shit...At the time I didn't know J was coming, we had been texting a bit back and forth and one of the last things I had said was that I could put up with a lot of BS, but I didn't want him to lie to me, and that i wanted my choices to be made with my eyes wide open and not because someone was manipulating the situation.

                            IDK i guess maybe that clicked with him somehow. I got busy and later when I messaged him he said he was on his way to see me(he lives 2 1/2 hrs away). I wasn't expecting that, I thought he was going to try and back out of facing me. So, we met...and he told me the truth. Which is exactly what I figured it to be. He started with "I fucked up, and your not going to be happy about what I'm about to say". He admitted everything, even with thinking of how he was going to keep it going because he didn't want to risk losing something that he has wanted for so long.(we've known each other about 12-13 yrs). But he had decided to tell me the truth because I deserved to hear it.

                            Well hell...
                            From personal experience I know how hard it can be to look a person in the eye and admit that you were wrong(I mean, so fucking wrong), and tell the truth, feeling so scared. Yes, these are old habits I am working on myself, though mine were mostly trauma related, but the choices were still my own. So I can respect how hard that was to do. I told him that there were signs I noticed, that I wasn't totally oblivious to what was going on. I have a hard time trusting my judgement, but, thanks to this...I know myself a little better, and learned a valuable lesson. That being said...I have given him a pass for now. So, idk how much i learned *eyeroll*. Still using this as an opportunity for growth, perhaps for both of us, who knows, maybe we can both walk away better people because of this. I will definitely be paying closer attention to my intuition, and will not hesitate to speak up...that is what i need to learn. I showed him the bracelet. He just put his head down and apologized again. I told him I hadn't planned on giving it to him yet, but that I had wanted him to see.

                            Can a person be too forgiving, too caring? Or am I just stupid?

                            Sunday was spent with my daughter and her man. She is supposed to be on bedrest now, but they went to Dave and Busters and called me to come join them...sigh. The Drs are worried about her blood pressure and the likelihood that she could have preeclampsia. Less than a week from due date now! We are all ready for him to be here, I'm just hoping things go smoothly.

                            One of these days maybe my log will go back to actual work outs instead of my drama notebook

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                              Thank you lofivelcro DorothyMH @JCU

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                                I don't think one can be too forgiving or caring. At worst, you have to look out that you're not being taken advantage of. As long as you keep your eyes open and do what feels right, there's nothing wrong with your approach, imo. If I understood correctly, you two had an open talk and that's a good thing. You'll just have to see what will come out of it.
                                Good luck and health to your daughter, I keep my fingers crossed that all goes smoothly.

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